Yesterday night, I’ve been gkicked.
The GM and some people who manipulated him hacked the forum, read my private messages which is absolutely illegal (I could go to the police actually but don’t want to bother for those people) and found some messages between me and my ex-GM from Krasus where we were deeply criticising the current GM, and making jokes about our 10-man guild.
He felt threaten by us. He spread everything on the forum for everyone from the guild to read. He presented it like a conspiracy against him and the guild, when is was just some silly jokes between old friends. The first guild Ally side on the Elune-EU server felt threatened by two friends joking about a guild not even existing, about something we could do in six months.
I felt disgusted. I just wanted to go on with Ascendance for a few months, with my friends, kill Lich King HM 25 and when Cataclysm launch, level and raid in a more casual fashion. I’m tired of hardcore raiding. I could not explain myself, that it was just joking, it was private. I was just so hurt. People not knowing what was going on exactly began to spit on me. It was just a quarry.
And the most hurting thing was that he promoted someone that hated me from the beginning of the guild to especially kick me. It was really disgusting. That person, along with another who hates me (don’t ask me why, really, I don’t know…) send me some insults in /w later. Actually, I pity my now-ex-GM to be such a weak-kneed, listening to those people. He’s weak.
Some friends quitted the guild, some stayed. They are my friends and they can do whatever they want. I wish that these problems did not affect them but it did.
We founded our baby guild. It’s cosy. It’s friendly. I’m free from raid schedules, DKP and other pressures. I’ll take time to level my shamans. I’ll raid with my druid. I tried some arena for the first time, it was really fun. I’ll spend more quality time with my friends online and outside. I don’t care about LKHM. I did what I wanted to do in this extension and I’ll just casually get ready for Cataclysm.
I feel much better now. Like relieved from a heavy burden I was carrying for months. I’m still a bit shaken, but I feel free. I told my friends about the blog. At first I though the GM had found the blog, just typing Nefernet on Google gives the link. It seems he hasn’t yet… (really how the hell did he managed to hack a forum and cannot even think about a simple Google research…) I don’t care if he ever find out. I write for me. I write for people I care for and people I met on my daily blog reading, for SAN and its fantastic guildies.
I’ve been hurt, but I’m fine now. Ascendance adventure is closed. It was great. It was a lot of stress, effort, sweat, blood, victories, wipes, laughs and tears. I met great people as well as the meanest people ever. I’m on a new path now. And that feels really good. I fell stronger than ever. Some French proverb says « What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger ». That’s true. I feel like I’ve been fighting Yogg-Saron for six months and now, at last, he’s dead, he’s quiet. And that feels good.